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January 9th, 2013 - Lakeshore
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Jay Lake
Date: 2013-01-09 05:26
Subject: [links] Link salad feels like Leisure Suit Larry
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Tags:christianists, culture, documentary, food, guns, healthcare, links, movies, music, nature, new zealand, personal, photos, politics, portland, religion, science, tech, trains, videos, weird
The Lakeside Kickstarter has begun — The complications in my cancer have created complications in the filming process. The producer needs to extend the budget a little further.

imdb with the listing for Lakeside — Still being built, but there's a movie poster there, and acting credits for me and [info]the_child.

Lord of the Strings: The Influence of Tolkien on Heavy Metal Music — Um? Wow. (Via Cora Buhlert.)

Faster, Quentin! Thrill! Thrill! — Roger Ebert with a lot of interesting things to say about Quentin Tarantino's Django Unchainedimdb ].

Closed off tunnel now sheds light on Portland's sordid past — A squib about Portland's Shanghai tunnels.

Round Trip — I love this 1943 Shorpy photo of a railroad roundhouse.

The US And New Zealand Secretly Tested The First Tsunami Bomb — Wow. (Via Daily Idioms, Annotated.)

The Sarcastic Fringehead — Really? Curious video of undersea life. Also possibly the name of my next rock band. (Via [info]willyumtx.)

Captured deep beneath the waves: Giant squid filmed in natural habitat — I've seen the specimen on display at Te Papa, the national museum in Wellington, NZ (though I think that one might have been a colossal squid). These things are amazing.

Release the kraken! 2,000 years of tall tales (and a smattering of truth)veryone from Pliny the Elder to Tennyson has written about giant squid.

Earth-Sized Planets Widespread in Galaxy — The rate at which our knowledge of the universe changes amazes me.

Consumption of sweet and diet drinks could lead to depression — Huh.

The Reverend Hall, America HeroComes word that the National Cathedral, an Episcopal Church, will start to perform same-sex marriages. Good. The public face of American Christianity needs to be about something more than bigotry, hatred and willful ignorance. Everything from evolution denial to the Mormon Church's shameful support of Proposition 8 to practically every word that comes out of the mouths of Evangelical leaders further stains the image of religion. Nice to see some movement in the other direction

Can Forgiveness Play a Role in Criminal Justice? — A wrenching piece on murder and forgiveness. Though given current events, I was quite struck by this line: “If that gun had not been in the house, our daughter would be alive.” There's a lesson here, that no one in the gun culture will ever acknowledge, let alone learn. The rock solid truth of the fundamental immorality of wholesale death is incompatible with gun owners' view of themselves as good people. (Courtesy of [info]wild_irises.)

Alex Jones Pitches Government by Boxing Match[T]he fact that Jones responds to a disagreement over government policy by telling his interlocutor "well how 'bout we take this outside" is illustrative. Jones spends much of the interview ranting about the evils of government use of force, without much attention to the kind of individual violence with which he threatened Morgan. That's one of the deep problems with our gun culture. It valorizes violence that the gun owner sees a defensive, just or retributive. Do we really want 100,000,000 people with powers of summary execution which depend on their casual judgment regardless of mood or circumstance or the objective facts of the situation? Because that's what this country has with widespread private gun ownership.

Giffords and Kelly: Fighting gun violence — An important effort that will sadly most likely be a failure, as Americans' love of guns trumps any number of deaths. As a culture, we prefer killing machines to the morality of life, and make endless excuses to maintain the illusion that this is the right thing.

?otD: Ever been to the Land of the Lounge Lizards?

Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (stress)
Hours slept: 8.0 hours (solid)
Body movement: 0.5 hours (stationary bike)
Weight: 217.4
Number of FEMA troops on my block teaching critical thinking skills to the children of conservatives: 0
Currently reading: The Hydrogen Sonata by Iain M. Banks

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Jay Lake
Date: 2013-01-09 05:28
Subject: [photos] Your Wednesday moment of zen
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Your Wednesday moment of zen.


[info]the_child at Halloween, age 10. © 2007, 2013, Joseph E. Lake, Jr.

The current photo series is from my 'favorites' file, hence the dates jumping about

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Jay Lake
Date: 2013-01-09 05:32
Subject: [cancer] A minor note in the symphony of dread
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Tags:cancer, health, personal
I have learned that my case goes before the Tumor Board tomorrow. What an evocative name, "Tumor Board". Me, I'm bored with tumors. I'd like another hobby, please.

What that really means is that the surgical and medical oncology departments meet jointly to review difficult or questionable cases. Given the scan ambiguity around Ashcroft, my fourth tumor, they're going to seek some groupthink. I should hear back from my medical oncologist Thursday afternoon or Friday with any updates that come out of that meeting. Pending a need for a referral to another doctor, or something else urgent, my pre-operative consultation a week from today with my surgical oncologist is still on tap.

Meanwhile, there have been a ton of phone calls between me and various insurance companies. Among other gems, I've discovered that in order to review the terms of my private (i.e., not employer-sponsored) disability policy with Mass Mutual, I have to fill out a form and pay $25. I find this both annoying and unethical to be charged for a copy of a policy I've been paying premiums against for years, and that I never had a copy of in the first place as it's an extension of an employer-sponsored benefit from a long-ago job, but I do not have the time or energy to fight over the $25. All that aside, why does it cost $25 to mail me an existing, standardized document?

Even with relatively good health insurance, which I do have (by American standards), being ill is a business of endless incremental costs and administrative hassles. It's like being pecked to death by feral potatoes.

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Jay Lake
Date: 2013-01-09 05:43
Subject: [movies|cancer] Lakeside Kickstarter
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The Lakeside documentary [ imdb ] Kickstarter fund raiser has begun. Waterloo Productions has been deeply involved in my story for almost the past year, and the various reversals of fortune which have afflicted me have correspondingly driven their production costs up well past the original budget.

The film is the story of my life with cancer, and quite possibly my death. We're working within the experience of my daily life, including things I don't talk about much or at all here on the blog — the reactions of my family members (their privacy, after all, is not mine to breach here); my responses to those reactions; some of my own end-of-life thinking and the planning that has begun for that series of terminal events. It's a bigger story than even this blog can tell.

As things do in life, everything happens at once. I believe another, separate medical fundraiser is launching shortly to help me pay for a rather expensive genetic test which will be completely out of pocket, as well as possibly meet additional medical expenses. This is a strange, strange time in my life, as I am not accustomed to asking for help this way. People and institutions have been very generous to me already these past few years. All of you who read and listen and hold the image of my struggles are generous with your time and your hearts.

Anyway, go check out what Donnie is doing over there. Whether you can give hope or money, it will help.

I will never get to heaven, but this film will be part of both my life and my afterlife.

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