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Jay Lake
Date: 2010-07-20 04:34
Subject: [cancer] The breaking of the ancient Western code
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Tags:cancer, health, personal
Some semirandom thoughts about yesterday's diagnosis, and a new round of surgery and chemo forthcoming.

  • This isn't fair, but nobody ever promised me fair.

  • Some contests you don't want to win.

  • I grew a tumor the size of a large olive while on chemo. How aggressive can this damned thing be?

  • Once is happenstance. Twice is coincidence. On the third occurrence, lift off and nuke the site from orbit. Unfortunately, I am the site.

  • My belief that I will not live to be old has deepened significantly.

  • If the universe is trying to tell me something, it's got my attention.

  • The next person who suggests I still have lessons to learn from cancer is going to be in a world of hurt.

  • Cancer sucks.

  • I am terrified.

  • Cancer still sucks.

  • Fuck cancer and the bony-ass horse it rode in on.


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Keikaimalu
User: keikaimalu
Date: 2010-07-20 15:48 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I wish you & yours only the very best. I'm so sorry that you're dealing with all this.

Seems to me that at this point, the only thing to learn from cancer is exquisite torture techniques for idiots who say stupid things.
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nancyfulda
User: nancyfulda
Date: 2010-07-20 15:48 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Fuck cancer

I'll pass, thanks. My husband does a better job.

Rooting for you, dude. And what everyone else said about a new round of medication offering a fully valid new chance.
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Jon C
User: joncwriter
Date: 2010-07-20 15:58 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
We're all behind you, Jay. This does indeed suck. :(

If we could all get in a spaceship and get shrunken down to a tiny size and zap that fucking cancer in the nads Fantastic Voyage style, I'm sure most of us would sign up for it without a second thought.
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mcjulie
User: mcjulie
Date: 2010-07-20 16:04 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Fuck cancer, indeed.
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coreolis
User: curiositist
Date: 2010-07-20 16:24 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Fuck cancer. What Ken and others have said. If there's anything I can do, even if it's tiny-small, please let me know.
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anghara
User: anghara
Date: 2010-07-20 16:47 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Fuck cancer,indeed. This sucks rocks through a straw. I am... I am... OUTRAGED. For you, and with you.
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desperance
User: desperance
Date: 2010-07-20 17:14 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Is there a "Fuck Cancer" song yet? I feel the need to be earwormed...
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Christian A. Young
User: bodlon
Date: 2010-07-20 17:47 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I lurk, so I'm a random Internet stranger, but my thoughts are with you and yours.
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Nisi Shawl
User: nisi_la
Date: 2010-07-20 17:48 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Jay, I'm really sorry to hear about this diagnosis. I don't comment a lot here, cause why would you need my comments. But I love you.

News to cheer you up, I hope: Green was just nominated for a Carl Brandon Society Kindred Award for 2009. That means laudation for writing about race and racial issues--plus $1000 buckarooninas if you win. So looking forward to that.
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Swan Tower: swan
User: swan_tower
Date: 2010-07-20 17:51 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:swan
Fuck cancer indeed. Fuck it right in the ear.
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frabjouslinz
User: frabjouslinz
Date: 2010-07-20 18:17 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Dammit! Fuck cancer!

Pulling for you. Hugs and support. Anything you need.
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theresamather
User: theresamather
Date: 2010-07-20 18:36 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
All the best to you, Jay. We're all rooting for you all the way.
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jetse
User: jetse
Date: 2010-07-20 19:55 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Jesus motherfucking Christ Jay!

I just wish there was *anything* I could do to help you. Oh man.

Keep fighting the good fight. Beat the cancer.

I can only tell from personal experience: on the one hand an old friend died of cancer last year. On the other hand another old friend was diagnosed with stomach cancer, which metastised, and they gave him three months. That was three years ago, and he's still going on, surviving, even making morbid jokes about it.

I'm a regular donor to the Dutch heart disease fund (my father died of a heart disease when he was 49), but now I'll be sending some money to cancer research, as well.

Wish I could do more. Best wishes and lots of strength to you and your loved ones.
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Joy
User: cithra
Date: 2010-07-20 20:10 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
My thoughts and my heart go out to you.
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zellandyne: marx and hodgkiss
User: zellandyne
Date: 2010-07-20 22:11 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:marx and hodgkiss
Fuck cancer.

Love you. So very, very much.
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The NewroticGirl
User: newroticgirl
Date: 2010-07-20 22:45 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Wow. :( I am so unhappy to hear this. I wish love could cure cancer, because then you'd be the healthiest dude around.
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robin catesby
User: deedop
Date: 2010-07-20 22:55 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Fuck cancer, fuck lessons, what Aimee said, and yeah, there needs to be a Fuck Cancer song.
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mmegaera: garden
User: mmegaera
Date: 2010-07-21 01:21 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:garden
7. Cancer is what needs to learn the lessons. Up one end and down the other.

11. Darned tootin'.
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shaolingrrl
User: shaolingrrl
Date: 2010-07-21 01:52 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
What is going to teach these idiots to get a fucking clue?
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Leah Cutter: Butterfly Fantasy
User: lrcutter
Date: 2010-07-21 02:02 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:Butterfly Fantasy
You are still in my thoughts.

Also? I concur. Fuck cancer. With a chainsaw and no lube.

Edited at 2010-07-21 02:03 am (UTC)
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Diana Pharaoh Francis
User: difrancis
Date: 2010-07-21 07:14 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
My heart goes out to you and your family. I pray you beat this crap and soon.
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Fluttering Things: isis
User: moxie_raqs
Date: 2010-07-21 11:13 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:isis
::hug::
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Bibbit
User: bridget_coila
Date: 2010-07-21 18:40 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
{{{BIG HUGS}}} and also a very loud "Fuck Cancer!"



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bradrtorgersen
User: bradrtorgersen
Date: 2010-07-22 03:56 (UTC)
Subject: Oh shit
Damn, this is terrible news. Jay, you're heroic for continuing to post about all this. I'd probably find a quiet dark place to curl up in, and wish for the world to go away.
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Jay Lake
User: jaylake
Date: 2010-07-22 11:19 (UTC)
Subject: Re: Oh shit
Believe me, I've been tempted.
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nineweaving
User: nineweaving
Date: 2010-07-24 01:00 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Whoever wrote this episode should DIE.

Live on.

All strength to you and yours.

Nine
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