Some semirandom thoughts about yesterday's diagnosis, and a new round of surgery and chemo forthcoming.

• This isn't fair, but nobody ever promised me fair.


• Some contests you don't want to win.


• I grew a tumor the size of a large olive while on chemo. How aggressive can this damned thing be?


• Once is happenstance. Twice is coincidence. On the third occurrence, lift off and nuke the site from orbit. Unfortunately, I am the site.


• My belief that I will not live to be old has deepened significantly.


• If the universe is trying to tell me something, it's got my attention.


• The next person who suggests I still have lessons to learn from cancer is going to be in a world of hurt.


• Cancer sucks.


• I am terrified.


• Cancer still sucks.


• Fuck cancer and the bony-ass horse it rode in on.