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Jay Lake
Date: 2012-08-13 05:41
Subject: [cancer] Off to visit Schrödinger's tumor
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Tags:cancer, documentary, friends, health, personal
This morning I'm off to the imaging center for my CT scan and CEA bloodwork. This is preparatory to Wednesday's oncology consult. Donnie Reynolds is here filming for the documentary. Lisa Costello is here to hold my hand.

Me, I'm here to hold my shit together.

Had a somewhat difficult filming session with Donnie yesterday evening. I followed that with a slow motion meltdown from my cancer anxiety.

Today is when the bullet hits the bone. My fear knows no bounds.

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Larry Sanderson: Bahama Sunrise
User: lsanderson
Date: 2012-08-13 12:51 (UTC)
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Good luck.
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Peter Hollo
User: frogworth
Date: 2012-08-13 13:44 (UTC)
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Thinking of you from over here.
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Dichroic
User: dichroic
Date: 2012-08-13 13:52 (UTC)
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Sending hope to you - it seems so inadequate.
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Laura Anne Gilman
User: suricattus
Date: 2012-08-13 14:09 (UTC)
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*sends purring kitten vibes* They are excellent for holding emotional fecal matter together.
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Blair MacGregor
User: blairmacg
Date: 2012-08-13 14:15 (UTC)
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Keeping you in my thoughts, Jay.
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rekre8
User: rekre8
Date: 2012-08-13 15:14 (UTC)
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Hugs
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Kate Schaefer: First Icon
User: kate_schaefer
Date: 2012-08-13 15:14 (UTC)
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I wish you the best results for the tests, and the best capacity for dealing with the anxiety.
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MG Ellington
User: xjenavivex
Date: 2012-08-13 15:20 (UTC)
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thinking of you.
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Queen of the Skies
User: queenoftheskies
Date: 2012-08-13 15:23 (UTC)
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Sending you strength and good thoughts.
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Kari Sperring
User: la_marquise_de_
Date: 2012-08-13 15:40 (UTC)
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Thinking of you.
Kari xxx
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cathschaffstump: habladoras
User: cathschaffstump
Date: 2012-08-13 15:54 (UTC)
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We'll be thinking of you today, Jay.

Catherine
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threeoutside
User: threeoutside
Date: 2012-08-13 18:09 (UTC)
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Oh, kitty purr vibes! Yes! Here are more from Omaha!
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I'm thinking of you, too. I mean, it's not just my kitties.
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jetse
User: jetse
Date: 2012-08-13 19:46 (UTC)
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Be strong, Jay: I am behind you all the way.

The best of luck!
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Little and foxy and sexy... what more do you want?
User: little_foxy
Date: 2012-08-13 23:59 (UTC)
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*hugs* it isn't much but from the other side of the planet it is about all I can do. My thoughts are with you today and I am hoping for the best for you.
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Renegade Vagabond
User: khaybee
Date: 2012-08-14 02:57 (UTC)
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I love you
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emmainfiniti
User: emmainfiniti
Date: 2012-08-14 03:38 (UTC)
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Hugs.
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Keikaimalu
User: keikaimalu
Date: 2012-08-14 03:59 (UTC)
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Big huge sympathies. Finding out over and over again that you don't get to call your own emotional shots sucks. On the bright side, this level of agitation and anxiety will not last forever.

Here's to very smooth sailing for you, now and in perpetuity.
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