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Jay Lake
Date: 2009-02-22 07:43
Subject: [personal] Dreaming of myself
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Woke up this morning from one of those long, complex dreams which faded immediately except for the last scene. I was back at the prep school where I'd been a boarding student during the declining years of the Age of Disco (waves to jtdiii), except this wasn't the Choate of my memories, but some ur-Choate of my subconscious.

I'd found my way into a bar on one of the dorm floors — we had those, but they were generally hidden away from faculty eyes, not operating with their own liquor licenses as in my dream. I was nursing a glass of wine and watching the ruckus in the hall settle down as evening study hours came into effect, when I realized the very large, amiable man in the red sweatshirt behind the bar was in fact me, seen in a mirror. I was shocked at how big I'd become again.

I'm still not sure how I served myself wine from the other side of the bar.

Originally published at jlake.com.

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User: fledgist
Date: 2009-02-22 17:27 (UTC)
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Sounds like multiple personality ordering.
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User: martianmooncrab
Date: 2009-02-22 18:09 (UTC)
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ur-Choate of my subconscious

if it had been Ur-Choate, it would have had some wonderfully carved doors.
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User: sheelangig
Date: 2009-02-22 19:23 (UTC)
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Did the sweatshirt SAY anything? That's where your message would be.

And the size thing? I've read that it takes the murkier levels of our selves quite a while, usually about two years, to update self image images. Frankly, that could have been part of the process.

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