And once again, calendula_witch talked me off the ledge, all the way from California. Because that's the kind of thing we do for each other.
I know why the Fear is coming back. The year anniversary of the initial hospital admission is almost upon me. The surgery anniversary is in a month. The one-year followup tests just after that. That trainload of stress is gathering speed. Sometimes I'm very, very afraid I'll have to back to cancerland, be slow again, maybe die this time. Most of the time I know better, much better.
But the Fear is tricky.
And I hate being its victim. Even for a moment.
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