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Jay Lake
Date: 2009-05-13 04:55
Subject: [cancer] There's a fog in the lowlands
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Tags:calendula, cancer, health, personal, writing
Last day or so my emotions have been pretty foggy. As I told calendula_witch, "My head's full of chowder, so ignore everything I say." Monday afternoon K— came and watched movies with me. Yesterday afternoon I went to the not-Fireside Writers Group and actually Got Stuff Done. This morning I kept a trainer appointment at the gym.

Somewhere in the middle of working out, my head cleared again. Hooray for endorphins! I have no idea if it will stay clear today — my pre-test anxiety has been pretty powerful. But it's nice to feel like myself and not some peevish git, at least for a few hours.

I'm on clears today, no food at all tomorrow until after the colonscopy, then only very light intake until after Friday's CAT. calendula_witch will be here this evening. By Friday afternoon all this upset should be gone like summer morning mist.

Originally published at jlake.com.

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fledgist
User: fledgist
Date: 2009-05-13 19:26 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Having had my first colonoscopy more than 2½ ago when I turned fifty, I sympathise. The preparation itself helps generate anxiety. All I can do is hope that it turns out to be nothing but the the mind chewing on itself, as it were. Good luck.
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karenjunker
User: karenjunker
Date: 2009-05-13 20:28 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
We are here, wishing you calm and healthy. Hang in there!
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Aga (Agnieszka) Anna Jedrzejczyk-Drenda
User: agaj_d
Date: 2009-05-13 20:39 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Fingers crossed for good results Jay!!!

Keep up the high endorphins level :)
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jetse
User: jetse
Date: 2009-05-13 20:49 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Take care Jay, and best of luck with the colonoscopy!
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melissajm
User: melissajm
Date: 2009-05-13 22:14 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
:sending good thoughts:
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dinogrl: Charlie Brown mailbox
User: dinogrl
Date: 2009-05-13 23:54 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:Charlie Brown mailbox
All will be well. That is one human indignity we share. I hate those things, period. But they are a necessary evil, and salvation.

Hang in there kiddo, you are the iron writer! (And I am not making reference to the contest, either.)
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Lawrence M. Schoen
User: klingonguy
Date: 2009-05-14 11:42 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
What kind of chowder? Inquiring minds want to know!
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Jay Lake
User: jaylake
Date: 2009-05-14 17:08 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Corn, I'm certain of it.
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Lawrence M. Schoen
User: klingonguy
Date: 2009-05-14 17:28 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
::nods::

that makes sense. you'd recognize it as corn, even after it's been through your (reduced) colon.

happy colonoscopy day! hmm, doesn't have quite the same ring as "happy book release day." I'll be getting both this summer. Must be because I'm such an empiricist.
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