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Jay Lake
Date: 2009-06-12 04:48
Subject: [cancer] Like a coral reef
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It builds like a coral reef in my head. Fear, alienation, love, kindness, brute chance, sweet coincidence. Everything is a question now. How many more books will I write? Three? Thirty? How many more years? What do I do differently? What if it's all a false alarm?

Still sleeping through the night, so it can't be that bad yet down in my plumbing. But I can see the castles a-building at the borders of my inner night.

Originally published at jlake.com.

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User: musingaloud
Date: 2009-06-12 14:04 (UTC)
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I don't even know what to say, so I'll just send a

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User: spencimusprime
Date: 2009-06-12 14:54 (UTC)
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Jeez man, I'm so sorry. Hugs from us.
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User: joycemocha
Date: 2009-06-12 15:02 (UTC)
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Live your life--and your writing--to its fullest right now.

That's all you can do at the moment.
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User: anghara
Date: 2009-06-12 17:19 (UTC)
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I'm with casacorona. Plan for a lifetime, write for today.

All I can add is this - 3 or 30, they'll be Lake books. And they'll be loved.
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User: jenntheamazon
Date: 2009-06-12 18:22 (UTC)
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I hope for at least another 30 books. ;-) Besides, the world is a much funner place with Jay Lake in it.
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User: lrcutter
Date: 2009-06-12 23:24 (UTC)
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Keyword:Wheel turns
Doesn't sound easy at all, Jay. But I have no doubt that you'll manage with your usual aplomb. You're in my thoughts.

I didn't come to JayCon because of my neighbor. She passed this morning. No regrets, Jay. Only way to live. Hopefully I will see you at Orycon, either at the con or I'll make a special trip to see you.

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User: a_r_williams
Date: 2009-06-12 23:26 (UTC)
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No one can ever know when they are going to go. People leave for work perfectly healthy and never see their families again. People put off dreams and say they will do them sometime in the future or hold grudges from a past life about trivial things. People on the cusp of achieving their dreams never see them come to frutition.

None of us know how much time we have, regardless of how healthy or happy we may be.

But you have today. You have this moment in time to live your life as fully as you can. You have this moment in time to cherish family and friends. You have this moment in time to appreciate all that is good in your life.

You have to choose to notice those things though. You have to choose to take part in them and give yourself to them.

You have what all of us have. You have today.
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User: fledgist
Date: 2009-06-13 00:18 (UTC)
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Just a *hug*.
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