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Jay Lake
Date: 2009-11-06 05:46
Subject: [cancer] So now what?
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Tags:books, calendula, cancer, personal
It's the morning after. There's a great deal of work to come, much of it quite unpleasant. But still, I feel so much better. Because we can take action, we have a plan, Things Will Be Done. calendula_witch and I have gone from formless dread to logistics. And believe me, I'm much better at logistics than I am at formless dread.

So now I plan, and deal, and run around, then get my ass kicked in surgery. I'll melt again right before the surgery. I'll melt again when it comes time to prescribe and plan chemo. But for now, I can be as strong as I like, and as busy as I always seem to need to be.

In other news, several people have suggested pulling together a book about this, specifically on the male experience of cancer. I took a few steps toward pitching a book last year, but the interest was low. Still, it's on my mind.

For now, thank you everyone for the flood of good wishes, positive energy and prayer. (Yes, I did say "prayer". I may be a frothing atheist, but if it works for you, I'm proud to be a focus.) More to come.

Nacho Day approacheth.
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REudaly: drained
User: reudaly
Date: 2009-11-06 13:59 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I think we all deal better with logistics than nameless dread.

Hey, it's the one thing in which you can say you're "normal". Not that normal is all that great.

Shall we all raise a Nacho on your behalf on Nacho Day?
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User: martyn44
Date: 2009-11-06 14:20 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Logistic it into submission? Sounds like a plan to me. Waiting to hear you sing, in the words of Roger Daltry (well, Pete Townsend if we're being pedantic) 'I'm Free!'
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User: animakitty
Date: 2009-11-06 15:20 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I wish you the best, and hope encounter only sensible doctors. Draw on the support of your friends and your witchie.

A book is a good idea, sure. I doubt many have had the will to try and write *during* the whole ordeal.
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User: daveraines
Date: 2009-11-06 15:39 (UTC)
Subject: Jay Lake, f 2.0
If I remember from last time, your prayer focus was not only for a good outcome for you, but for the sake of _the child_ and your family. Still true?

I think I will also pray that this will be the last time I have to pray for you re: recurrance of cancer. 'Cause I hate keeping records for recurring prayers, you know.
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Jay Lake
User: jaylake
Date: 2009-11-06 15:45 (UTC)
Subject: Re: Jay Lake, f 2.0
Very much true, yes. :)
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User: selfavowedgeek
Date: 2009-11-06 16:27 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Continued thoughts and prayers, Jay.
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User: madrobins
Date: 2009-11-06 16:40 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Nameless dread is a brain suck. There is no better antidote than being able to come up with a Plan.

Still spinning out sparks of good hope here.
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User: yourbob
Date: 2009-11-06 17:44 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Put together the book anyway. If nothing else, put it together for the_grandkids, though you too might benefit from it at some time.

Turn the cancer into a project.
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miki garrison: margarita
User: mikigarrison
Date: 2009-11-06 19:13 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
As Linz pointed out to me in her bday message to me this morning, today is actually National Nacho Day.

Sometimes, I think the world is a secret joke. :p
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Jay Lake
User: jaylake
Date: 2009-11-06 21:39 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Was the joke secret?

And is this really your birthday? How did I not know that?
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miki garrison: diet coke plus?
User: mikigarrison
Date: 2009-11-06 22:48 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:diet coke plus?
Yes, it is my birthday.

I received a lovely birthday email message from a dating website earlier this week.

"We see that you're turning 35 this week -- are you still single?"

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User: melissajm
Date: 2009-11-07 00:52 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thoughts and prayers heading your way.
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User: farmgirl1146
Date: 2009-11-07 00:59 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Sending hugs, prayers, and as much strength as can be sent through the ethers.
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Amy Sisson
User: amysisson
Date: 2009-11-07 01:57 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I'm glad with you that it's logistics stage. I feel like an idiot, because I never know what to say during formless dread. But I'm thinking of you often.
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User: imzadidragonfly
Date: 2009-11-07 05:29 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Positive, healing and loving energy for you, _the child_, calendula_witch and your family.

Nacho Day is also the day a dear friend will be receiving her new kidney. It will be a great day.
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User: ozarque
Date: 2009-11-07 15:08 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thank goodness it's the morning after. That's one less thing you have ahead of you to dread -- one thing that's over.

You are, as always, in my prayers. My radical pacifist universalist Christian prayers.
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Colleen Cahill
User: coruca
Date: 2009-11-07 20:43 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Prayers are on their way; good wishes are good no matter what form them take!
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