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Jay Lake
Date: 2009-11-12 05:46
Subject: [cancer] A brief note on stress
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When I'm very stressed out, I show it in specific ways. For example, I can't work a Sudoku puzzle. I make a lot of arithmetic errors. My sleep habits get wonky.

This is to say, I've been diligent about exercising lately, and I wake up on time, without the alarm clock even now, and can still work Sudokus. That's how I know that even in the face of emotional anguish, nonstop talking about it, and comfort eating, still much of the cancer stress is me processing stuff, rather than me cratering in the face of it.

When I stop being able to wake up on time is when the shit will really have hit the fan.

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User: cypherindigo
Date: 2009-11-12 13:54 (UTC)
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When I stop reading fiction, things are getting bad. When I stop reading, things are beyond bad.

I understand the concept. Sorry I missed the dinner last night. Dentist appointment gave me a migraine.

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Jay Lake
User: jaylake
Date: 2009-11-12 13:55 (UTC)
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Wow. I am sorry about the migraine.
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User: e_bourne
Date: 2009-11-12 15:11 (UTC)
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In the most severe stress, I can't knit.
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User: deborahjross
Date: 2009-11-12 17:52 (UTC)
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I think this is normal for what's going on.

When my PTSD crap acts up, I can expect to drop the ball, be unable to concentrate, sleep badly. I get into more trouble when I expect it to be otherwise than from the crap itself.

One thing that helps get me through: Remember to breathe. Just one breath, and then another. Wow, I can do that.

Edited at 2009-11-12 05:52 pm (UTC)
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User: scarlettina
Date: 2009-11-12 18:10 (UTC)
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When I get stressed, I get clumsy. I break dishes and glasses I'm washing in the sink (hence the compressed-glass French tumblers--they're tanks). When it gets really bad, it looks similar to how I get when I'm sugar-crashing: unable to make decisions and nearly inarticulate (for which some people, I am sure, are thankful ::grin::).

You're doing magnificently so far, Jay. ::hug::
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Kari Sperring
User: la_marquise_de_
Date: 2009-11-12 19:34 (UTC)
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Processing is way better than stress, any time. Best wishes.
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User: egilligan
Date: 2009-11-12 19:54 (UTC)
Subject: Hugs, Jay
I didn't get much time to chat with you at WFC, but I did want you to know that I think of you often and have a candle that I light for you. I've had my own share of health problem and the one thing I know is that you have to take the bit in your teeth and slog on no matter what. I'm confident that you'll beat this thing.

Hugs, Lace

Edited at 2009-11-12 08:05 pm (UTC)
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Somewhat Bent: Biohazard
User: ladyallyn
Date: 2009-11-12 23:21 (UTC)
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Our sleep habits are always somewhat wonky (which is why I often see you waking before I head to bed) but as Laoch has informed any number of hospital staff this past week, as long as he's cracking jokes and making bad puns, things aren't that bad. We've gotten to the "There Ain't No Funny Left" (editor screech) a handful of times this week. We've also thought of you often this week, knowing how your adventure started something like our unexpected trip to the ER on Sat. (and we still don't have a diagnosis, but we're pretty sure of several things it's not..." Knowing you have more Great Adventure(tm) forthcoming makes us more aware that Blessings and Well Wishes need to be spread around :-)

(and he's reading like a madman... when he can't read, it's a problem. Averaging 2-3 mass-markets or trades a day. Someone should be bringing Green tonight, I think)
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Jay Lake
User: jaylake
Date: 2009-11-13 02:12 (UTC)
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Oi. Good luck to you guys!
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