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Jay Lake
Date: 2009-11-20 05:49
Subject: [personal|cancer] Counting down the days
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Tags:calendula, cancer, child, family, food, health, oregon, personal
the_child, shelly_rae and I had a very lovely evening with frogworth and his family yesterday. We met at Powell's downtown, where I signed stock and bought presents for the Niece, whose sixth birthday is tomorrow. Then we headed over to Jake's Famous Crawfish for a ludicrously sumptuous dinner. Excellent conversation and fascinating stories were shared.

Today is Day Jobbery, then a planned birthday party for the Niece tonight, but she was running a fever yesterday, so that might not happen. Tomorrow the_child, shelly_rae and I are off to the coast to visit the wreck of Peter Iredale, and if time permits, also Indian Beach, which is my favorite West Coast beach. Sunday, a family Thanksgiving, for which I am baking knot rolls. (If you ask nicely, I'll post the recipe.)

Cancer-wise, the world keeps getting narrower as my surgery date approaches. I'm shedding commitments, people, desires, and needs. Not so much with the panic these last few days as with the sadness. I have my pre-operative screening appointment this morning. Monday I'll see my therapist again. Wednesday morning, back to the land of pain and drugs.

calendula_witch will be here Sunday, at which point my heart will be restored to me. She and shelly_rae will keep me pointed in the right direction before surgery, and keep me going after until I'm back on my feet. I'll know more about the chemo come 12/7, once we have the pathology reports in hand and meet with oncologist.

For now, I go on.

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ozarque
User: ozarque
Date: 2009-11-20 14:07 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I am so very glad that you will have people with you through all of this who love you and will be looking after you. And I am praying for you, every day.
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seventorches
User: seventorches
Date: 2009-11-20 14:22 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
We love you.
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seventorches: Chased Seahorses
User: seventorches
Date: 2009-11-20 14:22 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:Chased Seahorses
Actually, I should have used this icon.
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Twilight
User: twilight2000
Date: 2009-11-20 15:04 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
We're all pullini' for you - even if all we can do is think about it from afar.

Bright Blessings on you!
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Lawrence M. Schoen
User: klingonguy
Date: 2009-11-20 15:11 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Ah, I see I had my calendar wrong.

Somehow, I had it in my head that your surgery was set for today.

Guess I'm going to have to get more nachos.
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mevennen
User: mevennen
Date: 2009-11-20 15:51 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Hope all goes as well as it can, Jay.
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Pam
User: musingaloud
Date: 2009-11-20 15:53 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Just wanted to come out of my lurkage to say that I'm thinking of you and pulling for you in some strange way. Not much for prayer, but positive thoughts are my option. And I just heard a story from an acquaintance of a true miracle-like recovery of her son, so they (miracles) do actually happen, and good endings do come about, if things like that hearten you any.
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Rhonda Parrish
User: rhondaparrish
Date: 2009-11-20 16:46 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Sometimes I wish lj had a 'like' button, or a 'hugs' button, or a 'I read this, and I want you to know that I'm out here listening, but I don't know what to say' button.

I'd push it. If it were there.
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The NewroticGirl
User: newroticgirl
Date: 2009-11-20 18:52 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Same here. I want an "I'm reading and thinking about you" button. But without one, I leave a lot of <3
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Michael Curry: alton
User: mcurry
Date: 2009-11-20 16:59 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:alton
Please post the knot rolls recipe.

And I'll be pulling for you in my non-religious way through and after the surgery.
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Peter Hollo
User: frogworth
Date: 2009-11-20 17:03 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
It was lovely to see/meet you in person finally, as well as The Child, and we'll be thinking of you over the coming weeks.
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desperance
User: desperance
Date: 2009-11-20 17:36 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
(If you ask nicely, I'll post the recipe.)

*asks nicely*

And in somewhat more important news - well, you know. It's not news at all, but anything we can do, just say. (Beyond the rooting-for-you thing, which we are doing already.)
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sheelangig: reject reality
User: sheelangig
Date: 2009-11-20 18:13 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:reject reality

Out here, watching, listening, and intending the best for you.
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brent_kellmer
User: brent_kellmer
Date: 2009-11-20 18:29 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I'm glad you've got the support right there -- you've got lots of people out here pulling for you, but if they're not actually with you, it's kind of abstract, especially at the bad parts. But you'll have them close at hand as well, and that's a good thing.

And despite your fears (or at least some of them), when you come out the other side, you'll still be Jay.
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Gary Emenitove
User: garyomaha
Date: 2009-11-20 21:39 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Your health is #1 and we all are thinking of that.

But...

jaylake dining at a seafood restaurant was what caught my attention.

Egad.
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User: joycemocha
Date: 2009-11-21 04:01 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Jake's also serves some very nice steaks.
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melissajm
User: melissajm
Date: 2009-11-21 00:44 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I hope all goes well.
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User: joycemocha
Date: 2009-11-21 04:01 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Hugs. We're with you.
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