June 11th, 2009

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[links] Link salad, title free edition

The Green photo contest [ jlake.com | LiveJournal ]

Green readings and signings: [ jlake.com | LiveJournal ] — Including Powell's Cedar Hills here in the Portland area, tomorrow night.

SF Signal with a book cover smackdown including my own forthcoming Death of a Starship

1939 World's Fair on San Francisco Bay — Some mighty fine poster art.

American Garage: 1943 — Mmmmm, trains. Now this is some steamy punk.

iPhone Hackers Get a BreakThe difficulty of running nonapproved code on the iPhone has turned off security researchers--until now. Um... Does this count as being unclear on the concept?

At Last, Facing Down Bullies (and Their Enablers) — Gosh, wouldn't that be nice. I grew up in the 1970s, when the response to bullying boiled down to "Well, what did you do to antagonize him?" (Snurched from Scrivener's Error.)

Teaching Children to Spot Terrorists — Um... (Thanks to willyumtx.)

You werent excluded. You lost.The Edge of the American West on conservative rhetoric over the Tiller murder. The right's mealy-mouthed response to that is another place where conservatism show not that it is simply wrong-headed, but intellectually and morally bankrupt.

?otD: What price glory? Show your work.



6/11/2009
Body movement: 60 minute workout at the gym, 10 minutes of stretching and meditation
This morning's weigh-in: 215.4
Currently reading: The Hallowed Hunt by Lois McMaster Bujold; A Long Line of Cells by Lewis Thomas


Originally published at jlake.com.

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[cancer] Moving on through the system

A few more things happening, though status hasn't changed.

Visiting the oncologist tomorrow afternoon, not long before the dinner and reading for Green over at Cedar Hills in Beaverton. (Come by if you're in the area...dinner at 5 at the McMenamin's in the Cedar Hills mall parking lot, reading at 7 at the Powell's at the south end of the mall.)

I'm in Omaha next week, but when I get back, I have an appointment on the 22nd with my primary care physician to do annual stuff like cholesterol screening, and get a baseline on my insulin levels. Last year I had some very weird post-op insulin issues which cleared up with the surgical recovery. And we don't know how chemo will affect me.

On the 30th I have the second opinion appointment at UCSF-Mt. Zion in San Francisco. That plus the oncologist consult will probably map out my likely treatment plan. We'll see.

Mentally and emotionally I'm processing very heavily. Most of it's running deep right now. I'm sleeping okay at night, I'm not having big Fear jags or anything. But it's all in there. Coping with mortality issues, my fear of the chemo, my severe anger at the probability being sidelined from my own life for more than half a year.

I know this isn't a done deal yet, but chemo at least seems inevitable whether or not we do the liver surgery. I have to plan, and adjust accordingly.

I'll write more about the emotional and mental transitions when I understand them a little better. For now, I must say that calendula_witch, K— and everyone else around me are being deeply wonderful.

Originally published at jlake.com.