February 28th, 2010


[links] Link salad runs and runs to catch up with the sun

How Not To Apologize — Cheryl Morgan on bad behavior. (Not the fun kind, I'm afraid.)

Fallen Princesses — Disney, the morning after... (Thanks to willyumtx.)

Light runners — Language, headlines and the social logic of recordings.

Obvious quacks: the tip of a scary medical iceberg

Right wing slams White House for meeting with atheist 'hate groups' — So let me get this straight. If you oppose Christianist bigotry, and support secular freedoms over the narrow, restrictive views of any particular religious sect, you're a 'hate group'? Got it, right. Check. This must be why I'm not a conservative. Such logic escapes me.

?otD: Is the sun really the same in a relative way?

Writing time yesterday: 60 minutes
Body movement: 45 minute suburban walk
Hours slept: 8.0 (slept poorly)
This morning's weigh-in: n/a (forgot to weight)
Yesterday's chemo stress index: 5/10
Currently reading: [between books]


[cancer] The chemo, it burns

A good but difficult day yesterday, if that makes sense. Dear friends in town, shelly_rae arrived, dinner with family. But too many things happened in a row, and too many minor things didn't happen right, so I got worn out, badly.

Meanwhile, side effects are kicking up in a new and strikingly unpleasant ways. Collapse )

I am not enjoying today very much, even though I am surrounded by people who love me. tillyjane is here doing mom-stuff, the_child is here doing kid-stuff, and shelly_rae is here doing sweetie-stuff. I resent my grumpiness. Thankfully, they do not seem to.

Stoopid chemo.


[chemo] The burning continues, much like Nero's Rome

My side effects have been degrading my quality of life today in some pretty significant ways. The mouth issues are now up to a continuous, low-grade burning sensation. I've developed a whopping headache. The "tennis ball" effect is back at the chest surgery site, while the chemo port is aching as well. It's a bunch of cumulative irritation and stress, all of which I can do nothing about.

And that's the frustrating part. I've learned how to manage the GI symptoms, though I don't always succeed. I know how to handle the fatigue. This stuff, though, I mostly must endure. If the mouth issues continue tomorrow, I'll call into the oncology clinic. shelly_rae says her dentist has a recommendation for easing the pain, which is also worth investigating.

Mostly, I hate this mouth stuff because it seems to get in the way of everything else.

In other news, I got in about three hours of writing today, revising Endurance, revising some short fiction, and doing some actual story marketing and send-outs for the first time since the surgery last November. Go, me! Chemo can batter me, but it cannot beat me. Or deep fry me. Or something.