July 24th, 2011

a-links

[links] Link salad returns from the knife, sort of

Why Bad Reviews Rock — Mike Mullin on reviews. In passing, he delivers my favorite description of me ever.

The Chain is DeadScrivener's Error on the Borders bankruptcy.

Pacific Crest Trail blazer savors the memories

Why America’s Young And Restless Will Abandon Cities For Suburbs

Largest water body discovered — Inconveniently located for your holidaymaking needs, sadly.

A Flight of HeliosAPOD with an improbable aircraft.

Tattoo Tracks Sodium and Glucose via an iPhoneNeed to track your blood oxygen levels? There may soon be an app for that.

Make American Soldiers out of Them — Slightly baffling WWI US propaganda poster featuring a steam locomotive.

Left vs. Right — An interesting political graphic I don't entirely agree with.

The Republicans exit history — Roger Ebert says a lot of what I think, and as usual, he says it more eloquently than I could.

‘Haboobs’ Stir Critics in Arizona — Ah, linguistic nativism, arrogant ignorance is thy name.

When Extremism Learns to Blow things Up — Juan Cole on the strong parallels between Norwegian terrorist Anders Behring and the rhetoric of the American Right. It's that whole nuance thing again. People desperate for a reductionist, dualistic world are a danger to themselves and others. Unfortunately, reductionist dualism, under the deeply misleading label of "moral clarity", is a hallmark of both Christianism and the Republican Party.

?otD: Can you tell me where it hurts?



7/24/2011
Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (post-op recovery)
Body movement: 30 minutes stationary bike ride
Hours slept: 9.5 hours (interrupted)
Weight: 228.4
Currently reading: Objects of Worship by Claude Lalumière

cancer-scars

[cancer] Coming out of the hospital

I am out of the hospital and home as of yesterday morning. The ride home took a lot out of me, so I spent the day largely horizontal and quiescent. So far my recovery has been much ahead of the expected pace, but I'm still very weak and in a lot of pain. Eschewing the opiates has been much better for my digestion and my cognition, but I'm living a lot more closely with my post-operative distress than I have in the past.

Slept well last night, relatively speaking. I have two sleeping positions now, neither of them natural or comfortable for me. So I assume one and sleep until the pain and discomfort awaken me, then I assume the other and sleep until the pain and discomfort awaken me. Lather, rinse, repeat. Still managed a good night's sleep for the first time since leaving Readercon.

This morning I tried to follow my routine as much as possible. That is, awaken, exercise, shower, blog. To my own amazement I managed 30 minutes on the recumbent bike. Getting into the shower, I took a look at my corpus non delecti. I am a real shipwreck.

Collapse )

What all those scars say to me is that I still live. But they are decidedly a map of pain and suffering as well, of hopes and fears and psychic damage. I still have a lot of fear, albeit not boiling at the surface. The one surprise in my surgery was that the liver tumor had begun to interpenetrate with the abdominal wall. They did some unplanned resecting to deal with that, and the margins were clean. But I've heard about clean margins before, and continue to metastasize.

I'd like to live to be old. For now, I'll settle for living today.




Photo © 2011, Joseph E. Lake, Jr.

Creative Commons License

This work by Joseph E. Lake, Jr. is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-Share Alike 3.0 United States License.