December 5th, 2011

a-links

[links] Link salad from long, long ago

Review: 'Hugo' is a cabinet of wonders — CNN on Hugo, which I highly recommend to all of you.

SFFWRTCHT 1 Year Anniversary Show Giveaway

10 easy (but awesome) DIY Star Wars crafts projects — An R2D2 dreidel. Really? (Thanks, I think, to my brother.)

Cancer’s Escape RoutesScientists are beginning to discover myriad strategies tumors use to avoid attacks by anti-cancer drugs. Yeah, well. That's why I had to have a second round of chemo.

Kodak's long fade to black

What’s in a Name? Ask Google

As Water Levels Drop, Texas Drought Reveals Secrets of the Deep — Interesting. (Thanks to Dad.)

Terraforming: Enter the ‘Shell World’

Nano Paint Could Make Airplanes Invisible to Radar

Air Force Extends Secret Space Plane’s Mysterious Mission

The American-Western European Values Gap — From the Pew Research Center. (Via [info]danjite.)

Obama Gun Control Policy: President Stays Virtually Silent On Issue — You really have to wonder why the "Obama is coming for our guns" meme has so much traction among the GOP base. It's not connected to reality in any way, shape or form.

The World According To Cain — The Cain campaign's foreign policy document is laughable. I realize that the GOP thrives on low information voters, but low information candidates? Is that really a good idea? And speaking of low information candidates, Michele Bachman says she would close the US embassy in Iran. Uh, hasn't been one those in over thirty years. Hello? GOP presidential field? This is the reality-based community calling...

Reporter's Notebook: The Rise and Fall of the real Herman Cain

?otd: How far, far away is your galaxy?




12/5/2011
Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (chemo fatigue)
Body movement: 30 minute stationary bike ride
Hours slept: 8.5 (fitful)
Weight: 212.6
Currently (re)reading: Memory by Lois McMaster Bujold

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[personal] On writing, maturity and my personality

On the LiveJournal side of my recent post on perseverance [ jlake.com | LiveJournal ], [info]inflectionpoint asked in comments:
Very curious about how your personality is an artifact of your middle age. Can you say more?

I responded:
This probably merits a blog post of its own, rather than a comment reply, but in very short form, I was a pretty introverted and clueless child, teen and young adult. Sometime in my mid-to-late thirties I finally shed a lot of those inhibitions and that social blindness and tuned in to the people around me. I actually credit my personal growth to the effort I put into my writing, but that's probably somewhat arguable. I suspect it was an effect of delayed maturity more than anything.

[info]mmegaera followed up with this comment:
I don't think one's level of intro/extroversion has anything to do with one's maturity, to be honest, and it kind of bothers me to hear someone say so in that manner.

My response to that was:
I shouldn't think so as a general rule, given that introversion/extroversion seems to be nearly an intrinsic personality characteristic, but in my case this was definitely so. I became more extroverted as I matured and better grasped the rules of social intercourse, so to speak. Presumably I always had the impulse to extroversion, but for years was very bad at expressing myself or knowing how to fit in. That's what maturity gave me.

It's undeniable that I have been a very different person since my late thirties than I was in my teens, twenties or early thirties. (For reference, I am 47 now.) I can't speak for how others see me, but how I see myself has changed radically. I'm much more comfortable with myself and others, far more self-confident without being particularly self-conscious, much less concerned with how people see me or judge me, and generally a lot more relaxed and happier than ever I was earlier on in my life.

My experience of this transition is that it occurred at the same time that I was emerging as a working pro author. The transitions of writing and the business of my career opened doors in my head and heart that I barely knew were there. This centeredness and sense of self has been one of the great gifts that writing has given me.

Emerging authors famously go through a lot of transitions. The number of second book divorces and relationship collapses is legendary. My personal opinion is that this has to do with a shift in worldview as the writerbrain really engages and becomes an enmeshed part of the writer's personality. Everything changed for me — life goals, daily habits and behaviors, basic outlook.

I really can't say if it works this way for others. In fact, I'm quite curious about your experiences. Has writing changed your life? How? Was it for the better? Would you go back? Or are you just the same as you ever were?