August 17th, 2013

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[links] Link salad limps into the weekend

Green, by Jay Lake — A tepid review.

Review: The Year’s Best Science Fiction: Thirtieth Annual Collection, Gardner Dozois, ed. — Includes a nice capsule review of my multiple award-nominated novella, "The Stars Do Not Lie".

Short Story Review Roundup: February – July 2013 — A round-up that includes a positive short review of my short story "The Speed of Time".

Harvey Dunn on "Art for Art's Sake"Art writing guru James Gurney on a topic which often stirs younger and newer writers to heated passion. And sometimes jaded old writers as well.

1960s KFC Commercial Is The Stuff Of Nightmares

Judge says Chubby Checker can pursue lawsuit against HP over penis-measuring app — Um… (Via [info]danjite.)

These Microscopic Balls Protect Insects From Their Own Waste — This is pretty cool nano engineering from nature. (Via Daily Idioms, Annotated.)

Teleportation: Behind the Science of Quantum Computing

How to Catch a Liar on the InternetTechnology makes it easier than ever to play fast and loose with the truth—but easier than ever to get caught.

Witness to a Hanging: California's Haunted Trees — (Via Daily Idioms, Annotated.)

El Al Goes The Extra Miles to Bring Cancer-Stricken Girl to Camp Simcha — (Via @deirdresm.)

Mouth bacteria may trigger bowel cancer — Hoo boy. (Thanks to David Shanahan.)

Bugger: Maybe the real state secret is that spies aren't very good at their jobs and don't know much about the world — Odd stories about MI5. (Thanks to David Goldman.)

Surprise! There are no quick solutions to our climate problemsA focus on reducing short-lived greenhouse gas emissions only takes you so far. Gee. Ya think?

Oregon Supreme Court Upholds Portland’s Loaded Weapons Ban — A few courts in America are still sane. A few places in America still don't want to be free-fire Second Amendment kill zones. I'm very glad I live in one of them.

Obama: GOP trying to 'gum up' ACA — The Republican hatred of the ACA is a combination of their irrational hatred of all things Obama (remember, the basics of the ACA were a Clinton-era GOP proposal) and their dread fear of the impact of the ACA's eventual success on their political fortunes. I'm afraid that in this, as in so much of the rest of American culture, a minority of angry, misinformed conservatives will have the power to ruin a good thing for the rest of us.

QotD?: Got feet?




8/17/2013
Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (chemo brain)
Hours slept: 7.0 hours (solid)
Body movement: 0.5 hours (stationary bike)
Weight: 245.4
Number of FEMA troops on my block forcing conservatives to enroll in Obamacare: 0
Currently reading: Real Happiness: The Power of Meditation: A 28-Day Program by Sharon Salzberg

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[cancer] Field notes from Cancerland, post-New Zealand edition

Treatment Progress

I had a chest x-ray yesterday, to make sure my deep chest cold from New Zealand hasn't turned into pneumonia. Everything's clean. I had two oncology appointments this coming Monday, but one got postponed. Given that I continue to tolerate the Regorafenib adequately, we're kind of in a holding pattern until the mid-September scan. So I'm not too exercised about any of this. I am currently in the off week, but restart the drug next Wednesday (I think, the International Date Line has messed up my calculations a bit). So, yeah, side effects bingo and the eternal GI merry-go-round continue as is currently normal. Not to mention some very annoying, very slowly healing skin problems.

My Overall State

Not to put too fine a point on it, but I feel like hammered hell. This is a combination of cancer and its treatments, the aforementioned deep chest cold, jet lag, trip exhaustion, and for all I know, the phase of the moon. Almost everything that happens to me these days is so multi-factorial that it all becomes something of a blur. All I know is I've been home three days and I still can't think in a straight line. Which is too bad because I have a giant backlog of bills, legal paperwork, financial paperwork, email and Ghu knows what else glowering at me from my desk and my inbox.

The Progress of Disability is Not Strained

I'm still not free to discuss it in detail here online, but there's significant continuing progress in my various disability claims. As I have commented before, I don't want to prejudice those processes, so I won't discuss them until things are well settled. Suffice to say the recent news has been fairly good. As with every step of this journey, each answer spawns a hydra of new questions.

Family Matters

My brother is in town visiting from the East Coast. This is a fairly rare event. I'll see quite a bit of him over the next few days, though I probably need to stay home and hide today, given my ongoing wretchedness.

Friends

There's quite a roster of friends coming to visit over the next couple of months. Somewhat hilariously, my guest room calendar is almost fully booked through mid-October. People trying to see me while I still have enough of my mental and emotional stuff together for it to be fun.

World Fantasy in Brighton

If my September scan is positive (for those values of "positive" which accrue to me these days), Lisa Costello and I are considering burning some more Frequent Flyer miles to come to the UK for World Fantasy. Even if all we actually attend is Barcon. If I do that, I'll try to stay on a bit and visit with my many friends Over There.

My Fundamental Mental and Emotional State

Oh my God, am I tired of treatment. I am tired of cancer. I am tired of feeling miserable almost every day. I am tired of the endless shits, punctuated by occasional bouts of constipation. I am tired of fatigue. I am tired of feeling, and acting, stupid due to cognitive impairments. I am tired of being overslept. I am tired of being badly slept. I am tired of the many aches. I am tired of the terrible state of my feet. I am tried of the sensitive state of my hands. I am tired of being toxic to my friends and lovers. I am tired of being tired.

But I am not yet tired of life.