November 9th, 2013


[links] Link salad descends another level

Parking dispute sparks shooting at Home Depot — Because we are all safer with more guns. Just ask the 30,000 people who are surely proud to die every year to satisfy the conservative fetish for Second Amendment absolutism.

A Biblical Guide to Debunking the Heterosexual Agenda — Yup. This. It’s the divinely inspired word of God, right? (Via Slacktivist Fred Clark.)

Lindsey Graham`s lead Benghazi witness may have misled FBIDylan Davies claims to have been there the night terrorists attacked the US consulate in Benghazi, Libya. Davies’ account of that evening, and what he calls massive security failures leading up to the attack, were so damning that Republican Senator Lindsey Graham (R-SC) put a hold on all Obama administration nominations until he gets to the bottom of Davies’ serious allegations. Then Davies’ story went poof! — and was no more. Of course, no Republican will believe the new information, as they will simply see it as a successful coverup by the Obama administration. When you’re dealing with people who disdain evidence-based thinking, evidence that their thinking is wrong becomes meaningless.

Graham Goes SilentSen. Lindsey Graham (R-SC) was hogwild about the now-discredited 60 Minutes blockbuster in which fabricator-security contractor Dylan Davies recounted his nonexistent exploits the night of the attack on the US consulate in Benghazi more than a year ago. But after CBS finally retracted the story this morning (after dragging its collective heels for a week), Graham is now declining to discuss the story or the retraction. Odd. Usually Republicans just keep right on lying in the face of those liberal “facts” and “data”, since there’s hardly ever any accountability or consequence, and the lies help manufacture more angry white men. It’s not like Graham is at any risk of growing a conscience or anything.

Gay rights? NO! Immigration reform? NO!House Republicans are acting out of a stubborn refusal to take any action that might be construed as agreement with President Obama. It doesn't matter that it's the right thing to do. It doesn't matter if it's the smart thing to do. They have convinced each other that it amounts to surrender.

?otD: Have you abandoned all hope?

Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (chemo brain)
Hours slept: 6.5 hours (interrupted)
Body movement: n/a (away from home)
Weight: n/a (away from home)
Number of FEMA troops on my block forcing children to learn critical thinking skills: 0
Currently reading: n/a (chemo brain)


[conventions] Orycon, day one

My Orycon day one was rather abbreviated by medical and legal/disability activities, and compounded by the trailing edge of jet lag due to our Wednesday return from Maryland. I did manage to greet a few folks, and attend my panel on living with late stage cancer. (Which was ironic, given the fairly horrid day I'd had.) I then went out to dinner with my agent and her associate, a sumptuous repast at a place called Little Bird Bistro.

See some, all or none of you around the joint today and tomorrow.


[cancer] Walking through another portal in the hallway to death's door

Underwent my bimonthly CT scan yesterday. My oncologist forwarded me the radiology report a few hours later.

Not good.

Not instantly, deathly terrible, but not good.

Their comments, lightly edited for clarity and privacy:
There has been a small amount of growth in the lesions in the lungs and liver, no new lesions though. We can discuss the options, either continue on therapy thinking that the disease is growing more slowly than if off therapy, or look at Phase I options with [the oncologist coordinating trials]. Since the waiting list for Phase I is an issue, we can continue until something opens up.

What this means is that the Regorafenib is losing its effectiveness. The drug has not flatly failed me yet, but the excellent results we've been seeing have begun to reverse themselves. That trendline will not turn back around, that isn't how cancer drugs work. We have to decide whether and how long we want to gamble on partial effectiveness, versus moving aggressively into clinical trials.

In effect, we're back to where we were in June and July with my life expectancy being 6 to 9 months. The Regorafenib managed to stop that clock for a while, but the clock has re-started. If we're very, very lucky, we may find a trial that can stop that clock again. Lisa Costello and I see my oncologist on Monday to review our options.

At the moment, I am very upset and pessimistic. It didn't help that yesterday included the stress of the scan itself, wrangling with legal and disability issues, and a $4,000 bill for legal services in the mail.

This is another irreversible step on the rough path to my own personal extinction. Death has come another leap closer, and I can smell the gravedust on his breath.

I hate this.