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Jay Lake
Date: 2010-01-20 18:31
Subject: [cancer|writing] This is my brain on chemo
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Tags:books, calendula, cancer, health, our lady, writing
Wrote for about 90 minutes today. Which is to say, editorial discussion with calendula_witch about some revision issues in Our Lady of the Islands, then a whole bunch of editing, as well as some incidental research. (Such as learning what a trepang is.)

Had a discussion with Herself on the way home from the airport concerning my current mental deficiencies, courtesy of chemotherapy. Somewhat to my surprise, my reasoning ability seems as strong as ever, or nearly so, as does my creativity. My short-term memory is sucking wind, as is my longer term memory for things which aren't usually of immediate importance to me — ie, retrieval of obscure details. So I forget to do stuff, and I can't remember a lot of things that are normally at my mental fingertips.

(And here writing this, I just said to calendula_witch, "It was short-term memory, and what else I can't do?" Whereupon she laughed at me as she supplied the answer. Sigh.)

Ok, if this pattern holds, I'll take it. I can make a lot of notes, and look stuff up that I would normally already know. It's making me a bit crazy, but not nearly so crazy as simply being unable to think would do.

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shelly_rae: Gabe
User: shelly_rae
Date: 2010-01-21 03:17 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Uhm, short-term memory? Who are you again?
Oh right...I may be wise now but I can't remember my words of wisdom so someone else has to be to escritor--I think there was at least one religion that got started that way...
I'm not kidding when I say my iPhone is my brain. Use the memo ap.
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They Didn't Ask Me: 7of9voyager
User: dr_phil_physics
Date: 2010-01-21 03:51 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Rent Memento - it'll be a whole new experience. (grin) -- Dr. Phil
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User: klwilliams
Date: 2010-01-21 06:44 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I've had problems with remembering nouns (dysnomia) for about twenty years, thanks to medication I have to take. Since the medication keeps me alive, I take it, and I've learned to live with the noun problem. But it sucks. As I know your short term memory problem sucks for you. From observing my friend who was sick all the time, I think that this won't last forever.
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User: jackwilliambell
Date: 2010-01-21 08:44 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Hmm... Bad short term memory and the inability to remember certain things when you need to. That's me my entire life!

FWIW: Even when afflicted with aphasia so bad that I can't dredge up common words like 'dredge', I can *always* remember the word 'aphasia'. Even my (crap, what was that word? oh yeah!) disabilities have ironic undertones...
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Kari Sperring
User: la_marquise_de_
Date: 2010-01-21 11:53 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
That sounds very constructive, in fact. All the best.
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User: cathshaffer
Date: 2010-01-21 12:27 (UTC)
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Yeah, chemobrain is a subtle effect. In fact, it has only very recently been recognized as a real issue. For years, doctors and patients were not sure whether the changes were from chemo or just stress and exhaustion.
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User: musingaloud
Date: 2010-01-21 23:37 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Just look at it as a learning experience of what older age is like (*sigh*).
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