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Jay Lake
Date: 2010-01-25 05:50
Subject: [cancer] Chemotherapy, day three of session two
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Tags:calendula, cancer, child, health, personal, shellyrae
Yesterday, not to put too fine a point on it, sucked. I was exhausted by the chemo, more so than the previous session. We think this may have to do with me skipping the Lorazepam this time, and thus sleeping less overall. Also, the general increase in side effect intensity over time will surely play in. I did have the peripheral neuropathy act up both yesterday and this morning. Mostly, though, yesterday's issues were emotional. the_child had a strong bout of cancer stress which was overwhelming. Some less dramatic but still draining life stuff was also in play. The bottle ritual [ jlake.com | LiveJournal ] was tougher this time, too. By the time evening rolled around, I was deep into spoon deficits both emotionally and physically.

calendula_witch flies home this morning. I won't see her for over two weeks, our longest skip in months. This is for various good reasons which have been fully discussed, but still I'll miss her. shelly_rae trains home Wednesday. I shall miss her. Then I'll be on my own. Since we've pretty clearly established I shouldn't be left alone the first few days after chemo, this is all good, but I guess I'll get to be a solo-flying grownup later this week.

A photo or four...

Us, after taking out the pump.

Me, during the bottle ritual.

Me, after the bottle ritual.

Two down, ten to go.

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User: e_bourne
Date: 2010-01-25 15:27 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Hugs and love. Take care of yourself.
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The NewroticGirl
User: newroticgirl
Date: 2010-01-25 19:34 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
*many hugs*

If you want company later in the week, lemme know.
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Jay Lake
User: jaylake
Date: 2010-01-25 19:41 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thank you, babe.
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User: fledgist
Date: 2010-01-25 22:35 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Take good care. You are appreciated (I admit to the selfish reason of wanting to read more of your work, for many years). It is good to see that you are loved.
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Gary Emenitove
User: garyomaha
Date: 2010-01-25 23:26 (UTC)
Subject: And now for today's question
Who took that first photo? Or was it one of those cool timer thingies?

See you in a month!
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Jay Lake
User: jaylake
Date: 2010-01-26 00:05 (UTC)
Subject: Re: And now for today's question
shelly_rae has magical powers!
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User: shelly_rae
Date: 2010-01-29 04:17 (UTC)
Subject: Re: And now for today's question
And long arms...
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User: goulo
Date: 2010-01-26 08:22 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Good luck, Jay. You're often in my thoughts.
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