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Jay Lake
Date: 2010-04-03 07:26
Subject: [cancer|personal] You feel the devil's riding crop; or at least I do
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Tags:cancer, family, health, personal
Woke up this morning from a decent, and fairly long, night's sleep; and was immediately rather sorry I had done so. As has been the case throughout this week o' stress, my surgical scars were already aching. Normally that happens at the end of the day, when I'm all worn out, and it's usually the signal from my body that I need to go lie down right now. Not a good sign, in other words.

Likewise the lower back pain which has been expressing the past couple of days. Almost certainly stress. The headache might be chemo-related, as I historically don't get stress headaches. (My colon carries the stress load for me, freeing the rest of my body for other mishaps as needed.) And my eyes are doing this thing they normally only do at high altitude (10,000 feet plus) or under extreme stress, where they swell to the degree that my prescription changes and I can't see with my regular glasses, and must switch to my reading glasses for any task that involves, you know, seeing. This is a rare phenomenon indeed. Also, I'm congested again, which I am praying to all the tiny, pastel gods of pistil and stamen is allergies, because the last fricking thing I need is another cold.

About the only thing that isn't wrong today is my lower GI has finally settled down a bit. Though there were the usual late night awakenings and scurryings to and fro.

At any rate, between the fatigue-riddled mess that is my body and the state of my eyes, I'm going to beg a lift to the hospital this morning to visit Mother of the Child. (I have no business being behind the wheel of a car today.) She's up for a series of tests today to determine if she's healing sufficiently from Tuesday's medical error to come home tomorrow. She is out of ICU, at least.

In other news, last night I dreamt that casacorona hired me to work as a bank auditor, a job for which I am supremely underqualified in real life. I spent a bunch of time futzing with data normalization issues and flat screen monitors while the soccer fields flooded.

Otherwise, it's another day home lying in the chair to me. Taxes postponed again, though if I manage to stay mentally alert, I might finally get to some writing.

Cripes, it's been a tough week.

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User: keikaimalu
Date: 2010-04-03 14:57 (UTC)
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I'm really sorry it's been so rough, Jay. I hope things improve soon.
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User: shelly_rae
Date: 2010-04-03 16:18 (UTC)
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Besides what we talked about this morning, your eyes may be sharing a bit of allergy too. Chemo does make us sensitive to things that don't normally bother us much.

Slack Dude.
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User: adelheid_p
Date: 2010-04-03 16:51 (UTC)
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Yeah, my dad is coming home today from the hospital after a bout with pneumonia. His wife mentioned grocery shopping and as she doesn't drive that means he may be driving. I offered to come out and take her shopping (they live 45 minutes away) but he will probably do it anyway. He is almost one year post surgery for esophageal cancer for which he needed no post operative chemo or radiation therapy as they discovered it amazingly early, probably due to plavix or aspirin to thin his blood for his heart disease --which cause early bleeding at the site of the cancer. Anyway, he'll be 75 this year in September. He is used to always being on the go.
I also appear to express stress in the lower GI. And, I do have allergies and they are appear to be ramp up. I noticed the daffodils have bloomed here and there are hyacinths in the store for Easter. I love the fragrance but I don't think it loves me. I'm also sensitive to tree pollens which are probably wafting through the air now as well. These are the days when rain brings me relief (aside from the antihistamines).

Anyway, take good care of yourself. I'm hoping there is good news about Mother of Child's condition and that will ease your stress.
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User: cithra
Date: 2010-04-04 02:49 (UTC)
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You know, any extras I have that you can use are yours.
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