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Jay Lake
Date: 2010-05-11 05:08
Subject: [cancer] More roughness
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Tags:calendula, cancer, child, family, personal, shellyrae
GI stuff cleared slowly and painfully yesterday, finally getting more or less back to normal around midnight, along with a rather literalized dream that Big Science was happening down in my colon. Which, in a sense, it is, as I still alive after these past two years, thanks to multiple interventions from the Big Medicine branch of Big Science.

shelly_rae departed a day late, though she is always welcome and beloved here. calendula_witch continues ill. jkoke is kind of the last man standing.

Whilst the latter two of them were out dealing with House Stuff for calendula_witch's new pad, I was treated to a severe set of extended meltdowns by the usual residents. This on post-chemo Monday, when I am barely fit for licking stamps. I wound up eating lightly and going to bed even earlier than normal, as the day had completely defeated me.

All of this continually reminds me that world goes on with chemo. Nobody has a magic "get out of jail free" card, least of all me. But damn it's hard sometimes. Especially when your gut is telling you that you've got half a yard of concrete setting up in there, and your stomach is begging for food and retching at the same time, and everyone around you is unraveling.

Life, it's for living. If chemo was easy, all the cool kids would be doing it.

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Kari Sperring
User: la_marquise_de_
Date: 2010-05-11 13:12 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
It sounds horribly hard. You have all my best wishes.
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User: e_bourne
Date: 2010-05-11 15:01 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Welcome to adolescence. It's all about them. All the time. Always. I remember those years no matter how hard I try and forget. :-) But you love them anyway, and it's important to remember that no matter what, they love you. Even if it doesn't seem like it at the moment. Really, they do.
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Max Kaehn: Science!
User: slothman
Date: 2010-05-11 18:24 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
With my background in physics, my first association for Big Science is particle accelerators, leading immediately to “I gotcher Higgs boson right here!” ker-FLUSSSHHH
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They Didn't Ask Me
User: dr_phil_physics
Date: 2010-05-11 18:44 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
"If chemo was easy, all the cool kids would be doing it."

There's a scary story about kids doing chemo for non-cancerous reasons out there -- but I have no idea what it is. Will ponder this.

Dr. Phil
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