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Jay Lake
Date: 2010-05-13 16:40
Subject: [cancer] This just in: chemo sucks more than ever
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Tags:cancer, health, personal
Not to put too fine a point on it, I feel like hammered shit that's been bronzed and used for a boot scraper.

Much of this week has been characterized by extreme fatigue of the sort I usually associate with the hours immediately after coming off the needle on infusion weekends. To the point where I've completely stopped driving a car, as my lack of alertness and impaired reaction times would make me a meaningful danger to myself and others. I have reached a new low in exhaustion.

I'm also having serious problems with cold sensitivity/peripheral neuropathy, those delightful conjoined bastard twins of chemotherapy. The last two mornings I've been almost unable to walk due to cramping and numbness in my calves and feed from said issues, and I have spent much of this day in my 70+ degree house bundled up as for winter, crouched in front of a space heater. I don't normally wear gloves indoors all day, thank you.

On top of all that, throw in some more-than-usual GI wonkiness, some life stress, and a pretty total crash of both my appetite and my taste buds. I know this is the home stretch — three more infusion sessions to go, scheduled to wrap the weekend of 6/18-6/20 — but things have gotten very, very hard here. I am quite discouraged at the degree of my debilitation this week.

Chemo sucks. Cancer sucks more. So long as I hang on to that...

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jenntheamazon
User: jenntheamazon
Date: 2010-05-13 23:49 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Mass suckage Jay. I wish there was an easier way about all this. I keep you in my thoughts often, and am sending good happy vibes your way in home they make your life more easily dealt with for the time being. I can't wait to get the "ol Jay" back. Stupid Cancer stealing you away like this. Poo on cancer...seriously.
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Keikaimalu
User: keikaimalu
Date: 2010-05-13 23:58 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Really sorry you're going through all this, Jay.

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Allison Lonsdale: lotus
User: caprine
Date: 2010-05-14 00:27 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:lotus
I send you good wishes and hope.
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Mary Dell
User: marydell
Date: 2010-05-14 00:57 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Ah, suckage. Not too much longer. Have you seen "hot hands?" they're chemical heat packs you can stick in your gloves & your shoes to stay warm. Target has 'em, I think.
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Richard Parks
User: ogre_san
Date: 2010-05-14 01:12 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
If I knew what to say, I'd say it. I think you're handling this amazingly well.
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Bane
User: endiron
Date: 2010-05-14 01:24 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Chemo is so gods damned awful it kills Cancer... That is pretty phenomenally awful considering cancer is a bunch of rebellious cells telling the rest of the grand plan to fuck itself, then showing it how in detail.

The fact that you have remained an essentially functional carbon unit during this time impresses V-Ger greatly. Try to be kind to yourself man.

Bane
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Talekyn
User: talekyn
Date: 2010-05-14 01:38 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Sending good thoughts and energy your way. I'm looking forward to the posts that say chemo is over, you're feeling better and the cancer is GONE.
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Matthew S. Rotundo: Radioactive
User: matthewsrotundo
Date: 2010-05-14 02:13 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:Radioactive
I still say you should have let me take a baseball bat to this fucking cancer.
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adelheid_p
User: adelheid_p
Date: 2010-05-14 02:28 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I hope that's what the chemo is doing, metaphorically speaking.
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Gary Emenitove
User: garyomaha
Date: 2010-05-14 20:25 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Um, Matt, considering where said cancer is potentially (but preferably not) residing, would you care to restate that?
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adelheid_p
User: adelheid_p
Date: 2010-05-14 02:30 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Rest up, eat as best as you can and know that we are holding you in our thoughts and FUCK cancer!
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cathshaffer
User: cathshaffer
Date: 2010-05-14 03:20 (UTC)
Subject: [cancer] This just in: chemo sucks more than ever
I hate to say, but this sounds like it warrants a visit to the doc or urgent care. You may have a virus, infection, drug reaction or some such. I hope you are okay and feel better soon.
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shaolingrrl
User: shaolingrrl
Date: 2010-05-14 04:23 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Fuck cancer.
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Kari Sperring
User: la_marquise_de_
Date: 2010-05-14 09:32 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Fuck cancer. Long Live Jay.
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A large duck: wagon
User: burger_eater
Date: 2010-05-14 17:13 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:wagon
Best wishes, Jay
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