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Jay Lake
Date: 2010-05-16 08:26
Subject: [cancer] Sleeping the sleep of the ungrateful dead
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Tags:calendula, cancer, family, health, personal
Eleven and a half hours in bed last night. Zonked out just about right at 7:30 pm, woke up slightly after 7:00 am. I did have a 30 minute GI-related excursion around 4:00 am, so really it was only eleven hours of sleep. And yes, I had taken a Lorazepam before bed.

No human being should sleep that much. It's an insane waste of time, energy and lost consciousness.

On the other hand, I feel better this morning than I have in days. Not good in any meaningful sense, mind you, still quite wretched physically, but my mental energy is far better, and the peripheral neuropathy is very much at the edges, not the center of my focus. Still awfully flat, just not nearly as unhappy about it. Amazing what the human mind will adapt to.

I wonder if I have been battling a minor bug of one sort or another. Nothing like the horrific course of calendula_witch's ongoing evil cold, but the excessive sleeping coupled with a decent uptick in my well-being suggests I may have been getting over something these past few days. Given that I'm the Toxic Avenger these days, it does amaze me that any ordinary microflora could find my system particularly hospitable. Macrofauna certainly do not.

tillyjane has been here a couple of days, puttering and keeping an eye on me. I might even venture out of the house midday with Dad's assistance. (I am still nowhere near well enough to drive, and at this point doubt I will be driving again until chemo is over in late June.)

Brain continues to be awake in the mornings, including today. I function. But damn do I hate sleeping my life away, as I've already burned more than half my "brain awake" time.

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The NewroticGirl
User: newroticgirl
Date: 2010-05-16 15:57 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
If you need errands run/outings (as my grandmother always calls it, "airing out")/company/food, I have Monday/Tuesday available. We can be feeble together. ;)
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The Green Knight: Yawn
User: green_knight
Date: 2010-05-16 15:59 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:Yawn
My natural range for sleep is 8-10 hours. Less than eight, and I get crabby, less than six and I am not fully functional. I can do it for a day or two, but it costs me and I need to really psych myself up for it.

People differ. If you're sick, you'll need more sleep - and if you consider it a waste of time, you're not doing your body any favours.
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torreybird
User: torreybird
Date: 2010-05-16 16:39 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I have the same natural sleep needs. Once I learned to actually fucking go to bed, the quality of my awake hours improved immensely - including a respite from autoimmune disorder-related pain.

Still galls me to no end - so much wasted TIME! AArgh! Especially since I get tired so fricken' early. My best hours still occur before anyone else I know is awake, other than my Mom, on the other coast -- and SHE needs about 2/3 of the hours that I do. I'm envious.
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The Green Knight: Beacon
User: green_knight
Date: 2010-05-16 22:37 (UTC)
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I don't feel I'm wasting my time sleeping. I like sleeping, I like the quiet period preceeding it in which I can brainstorm my writing, I like the weird stuff my brain comes up with during the night, I like having a quiet moment before I start my day... and I really really like feeling refreshed and ready to tackle the day.

Going to bed early helps a lot, I find. I don't always remember to, but it makes a difference. I'm also lucky in that I don't need to get up at any given point, which means I sleep myself out every day, which in turn means that I need, on average, less sleep than when I'm constantly cutting my sleep short, even if it's only by half an hour.
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e_bourne
User: e_bourne
Date: 2010-05-16 16:25 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Glad the sleeping made you feel a little better.
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madrobins
User: madrobins
Date: 2010-05-16 17:29 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
No human being should sleep that much. It's an insane waste of time, energy and lost consciousness.

Stop that. Right now. It's a totally sane replenishment of energy. It's helping you heal. Stop being so damned judgmental about what your body needs or I shall come up there and smack you. Honest to God, Lake. Really.
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zellandyne: cuddles
User: zellandyne
Date: 2010-05-16 18:30 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:cuddles
Ditto. You've been lucky in that, most of the time, you get by quite well on significantly less sleep. But, just as you should eat when you're hungry, you should sleep when you're tired. And, you know, fighting cancer will make you tired.

I need to sleep at least 9 hours a night every night in order to be functional. 10 or 11 would be better, since I'm recovering from years of sleep debt + recent kidney infection. It's frustrating as hell that recovery is taking so long, but I'm definitely less tired now than I was six months ago.

*hugs*
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Lawrence M. Schoen: Klingon
User: klingonguy
Date: 2010-05-16 19:23 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:Klingon
Did I ever tell you that I met the Toxic Avenger (and other characters from that film studio) when I was in France for the Cannes Film Festival and Market? True story. We paired off against them, Klingons vs. Toxie, for a staged press conference. What can I say, it was a slow day in Cannes.
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Gary Emenitove
User: garyomaha
Date: 2010-05-17 01:20 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
>>No human being should sleep that much. It's an insane waste of time, energy and lost consciousness.<<

But what if there's nothing else you have to do and there's nothing else you'd rather do? I know people who can just doze off anywhere, which I cannot, so sleeptime is special for me.

But this isn't about me, it's about you, and your body wants to rest. So kvetch away, but you know good and well you need the rest during this period. ;)
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