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Jay Lake
Date: 2010-06-14 05:49
Subject: [cancer] Sometimes it's all about the grump
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Tags:cancer, personal
I only had three ambitions yesterday. To get a big pile of sig sheets done, to watch the extended edition DVDs of The Two Towers and Return of the King, and to have a quiet, relaxing day.

Well, at least I got the sig sheets done.

Otherwise my day was filled with visitors, phone calls, parenting, lower GI follies and eventually, after about the 70th demand on my attention a rising and rather nasty sense of grumpiness on my part. Like Marlene Dietrich Greta Garbo [ETA: Ah, cultural literacy on chemo brain], all I really wanted was to be left alone. The world, and the people who love me, had other ideas.

Normally I roll with that stuff just fine. I like people in general, and I love the people I love. But for some reason yesterday that switch was out for repairs. I was well rested, so it wasn't even simple fatigue making me grumpy. I've had various emotional crashes on chemo, but they tend to run to withdrawal or bursting into tears. I don't usually get prickly and cranky and mad.


Almost done.

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User: gvdub
Date: 2010-06-14 13:41 (UTC)
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It was Greta Garbo, not Dietrich, who wanted to be left alone. I know - quibbling.

Hey, cranky happens. One of the little talked about side effects of diabetes and blood sugar control issues is crankiness, so I've been there at times when I shouldn't. Consider sympathy extended.
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User: cypherindigo
Date: 2010-06-14 13:58 (UTC)
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Greta Garbo.

Although I found Deitrich to be a much more interesting person.
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Kari Sperring
User: la_marquise_de_
Date: 2010-06-14 15:28 (UTC)
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You have every right to feel grumpy. However much you love people, and they you, sometimes you need them to leave you alone, and that's something they need to learn, too.
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User: shaolingrrl
Date: 2010-06-14 18:49 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Hey, I get that way. It's called being human, not being chemo-haid.
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