[cancer] The breaking of the ancient Western code

[cancer] The breaking of the ancient Western code - Lakeshore
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Date:	2010-07-20 04:34
Subject:	[cancer] The breaking of the ancient Western code
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Tags:	cancer, health, personal

Some semirandom thoughts about yesterday's diagnosis, and a new round of surgery and chemo forthcoming.

This isn't fair, but nobody ever promised me fair.

Some contests you don't want to win.

I grew a tumor the size of a large olive while on chemo. How aggressive can this damned thing be?

Once is happenstance. Twice is coincidence. On the third occurrence, lift off and nuke the site from orbit. Unfortunately, I am the site.

My belief that I will not live to be old has deepened significantly.

If the universe is trying to tell me something, it's got my attention.

The next person who suggests I still have lessons to learn from cancer is going to be in a world of hurt.

Cancer sucks.

I am terrified.

Cancer still sucks.

Fuck cancer and the bony-ass horse it rode in on.

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User:	khaybee
Date:	2010-07-20 11:54 (UTC)
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Love to you and your family, and support in whatever you choose to do. I miss you.

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User:	drjon
Date:	2010-07-20 11:59 (UTC)
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One thing I've seen, in the short time I've been reading your journal, is that you're a fighter. So I reckon you'll keep fighting until it's beat. And I reckon you've got the wherewithall to do that.

My thoughts, with you.

(People who start flapping their drooling gums at you about "lessons" need a good lesson themselves. And a world of hurt is a good way of them learning that lesson. Sometimes, the only thing an ash✳le is good for is kicking.)

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User:	ex_kaz_maho
Date:	2010-07-20 12:05 (UTC)
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I think you've learned all the lessons one can possibly learn from such a cruel and pointless disease. (Do people actually suggest that to you?? Ugh.) None of that from me, I promise.

Thinking of you, Jay. I know it must be weird to have so many people you don't know thinking all the good thoughts they possibly can for you... but... well, that's just the way it is on teh interwebs. Sending lots of love across the Atlantic...

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User:	matociquala
Date:	2010-07-20 12:41 (UTC)
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Fuck cancer.

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User:	lotusice
Date:	2010-07-20 12:44 (UTC)
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Massive love and hugs.

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User:	laurie_gail
Date:	2010-07-20 12:54 (UTC)
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People have actually said, or hinted, that you have cancer so you can learn more 'lessons'?!! Those are the people to nuke from orbit.

There is nothing 'uplifting' that anyone can say at a time like this. Just know my thoughts and hopes are with you. Love and hugs to you and your family.

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User:	wlotus
Date:	2010-07-20 13:02 (UTC)
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The next person who suggests I still have lessons to learn from cancer is going to be in a world of hurt.

I came to the conclusion years ago that any divinity/power that is powerful enough to orchestrate life events to teach me lessons, yet deliberately chooses painful events as the method of teaching, is NOT a divinity/power I wish to have a personal relationship with.

I'm rooting for you, damn it all.

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User:	cathshaffer
Date:	2010-07-20 13:06 (UTC)
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The cancer is aggressive, but chemo and other cancers can be pretty specific in the drugs they respond to, so it may have been an unlucky guess on the part of your oncologist. It's very reasonable to expect that this next treatment will be completely successful. Picking the right drug the first time is a major field of research.

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User:	benpeek
Date:	2010-07-20 13:14 (UTC)
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yeah, fuck cancer indeed.

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User:	kproche
Date:	2010-07-20 13:18 (UTC)
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Not normally one inclined to employ the f-bomb, but that makes it more striking when used.

Fuck cancer.

We're pulling for you, too.

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User:	evaleastaristev
Date:	2010-07-20 13:41 (UTC)
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The next person who suggests I still have lessons to learn from cancer is going to be in a world of hurt.

If that person happens to be in the Seattle area, I offer my services to team up with

shelly_rae to bring down this world of hurt. Because I care.

I understand completely on all these sentiments. I've felt all but the 4th one from the POV of family. Multiple times. My fingers are crossed, and my heart is with you and all who love you that you get through this with the absolute minimum of fuss and discomfort.

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User:	joycemocha
Date:	2010-07-20 13:42 (UTC)
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Hugs. Just--big teary hugs, Jay. You know where I'm coming from.

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User:	jonhansen
Date:	2010-07-20 14:00 (UTC)
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Is it too late to get a refund on your immune system?

Be strong, dude.

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User:	madrobins
Date:	2010-07-20 14:10 (UTC)
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The next person who suggests I still have lessons to learn from cancer is going to be in a world of hurt.

Seriously? Like this was all an Afterschool Special? I can think of a dozen people who would help you with that World of Hurt project.

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