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[cancer] Heading back under the knife - Lakeshore
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Jay Lake
Date: 2010-09-15 05:21
Subject: [cancer] Heading back under the knife
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Tags:calendula, cancer, health, personal
Tomorrow is my liver resectioning surgery date. Third major surgery in three years, all to address primary colon cancer and subsequent metastases of same. I am not sure if I'll have a chance to blog tomorrow morning, and I certainly won't be blogging for a while after surgery, so y'all play nice while I'm gone. calendula_witch will have status updates on her blog, and possibly here as well. For those in Portland, I'll be at OHSU, probably through Monday, and generally welcome visitors when I'm stuck in the hospital.

Our antipodeal vacation did a wondrous job of keeping my mind off this, but it pretty much all came crashing back yesterday. Had a lovely dinner last night with family and friends. Sadly, that seems to be an annual tradition. Managed something of a slow-motion meltdown afterwards when I was alone with calendula_witch. She was quite the loving pillar of support.

The Fear sucks.

As I've mentioned previously, I am quite overwhelmed by the experience of major surgery. I know just enough about anaesthesia to very, very afraid of it. I hate the epidural with a passion though I recognize its effectiveness. The discomforts of recovery, most especially including the catheter, distress me. All the lost time leaves a strange lacuna in my memory, both the black hole of anaesthesia and the strange dream state of post-operative medication.

All of which is to say, I've weathered tougher surgeries than tomorrow's, and I'll pass through tomorrow's just fine. Whatever I think of the toll it takes. The hardest part will be waiting for the pathology report. That's what will confirm the commitment to another six-month round of chemo. Or, slightly possibly, not.

So a lot at stake today. We'll be at the hospital most of this afternoon doing pre-op consultations of various sorts. I'll try to do a summary blog report tonight of whatever there is to be reported. After that, le deluge.

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mikandra
User: mikandra
Date: 2010-09-15 12:24 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Good luck. I'll think about you tomorrow.
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Starshadow
User: arielstarshadow
Date: 2010-09-15 12:27 (UTC)
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Wishing you well, Jay. Anaesthesia scares the bejeezus out of me, too.
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lotusice
User: lotusice
Date: 2010-09-15 12:35 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I'll be thinking of you. Big long distance hugs.
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zxhrue: please do not put the bones
User: zxhrue
Date: 2010-09-15 12:39 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:please do not put the bones

once more into the breach.

luck.
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User: joycemocha
Date: 2010-09-15 12:48 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Praying and dancing for you tomorrow.
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cathschaffstump: cathbooks
User: cathschaffstump
Date: 2010-09-15 12:52 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Keyword:cathbooks
Good luck, Jay.

Catherine
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Little and foxy and sexy... what more do you want?
User: little_foxy
Date: 2010-09-15 12:58 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
you will be in my thoughts...
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mysterysquid
User: mysterysquid
Date: 2010-09-15 12:59 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Good thoughts your way, Jay.
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griffinwords
User: griffinwords
Date: 2010-09-15 13:00 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Hang in there, Jay. Wishing you the best.
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dionysus1999
User: dionysus1999
Date: 2010-09-15 13:05 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Here's hoping for the best outcome possible.
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User: jess_ka
Date: 2010-09-15 13:14 (UTC)
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Am and will be thinking of you, Jay.
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mevennen
User: mevennen
Date: 2010-09-15 13:23 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
I hope things go as well as possible, Jay.
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Kari Sperring
User: la_marquise_de_
Date: 2010-09-15 13:31 (UTC)
Subject: (no subject)
Thinking of you.
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russ
User: goulo
Date: 2010-09-15 13:43 (UTC)
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Your positive attitude and honesty and successful perseverance and making the best of the cancer adventure is a continuing inspiration and source of admiration for me. Good luck to you with this operation. Come through it and resume shopping as usual! :)
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Sean P. Fodera
User: delkytlar
Date: 2010-09-15 13:46 (UTC)
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As always, my friend, you and your family and loved ones remain in my prayers. Keep fighting the good fight, Jay.
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