I dropped my blog for a couple of days for exactly the reasons stated on Monday, but also a bigger one. I was having a massive, slow-motion meltdown. This is post-chemo stuff, my inner self catching up with months of unavoidable neglect of personal and relationship issues, the sort that
The details don't matter except to the principals, but in the course of my meltdown I managed to be quite vile to both
It's not my normal habit to discuss the nuts and bolts of my relationships here on the blog, but I found it important to reveal this bit of business as part of my ongoing discussion about the issues and pressures of cancer. Note that after eleven months of one form of medical hell after another, and still in the warm aura of the recent reprieve from a second round of chemotherapy, is when the ugliest emotional moments have happened.
I've said before cancer is a social disease. It took so much from me. As
The greatest blessing (says this staunch atheist) of all of this messy business is that I do have a chance to put it all back together. With luck, better than it was before.
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