So yesterday was unusual. I'd planned for several days to start working on Sunspin again. Time was set aside, with an absence of social or personal responsibilities. But when I got up in the morning, my backbrain went into full on writing avoidance mode. Which is such a rare condition for me that it took me a while to recognize what the heck was going on.
One thing I have learned over the years is not to argue with my subconscious about these things. There's almost always a reason, even if I can't see it at the time. I'm pretty sure yesterday's reason was something akin to mental exhaustion. I'd been back at work for four days for the first time since the surgery, my body is still far from well, and I needed to rest, my ambitions and schedule notwithstanding. I realized this in the late morning when I kept falling asleep while reading N.K. Jemisin's The Hundred Thousand Kingdoms. I'm enjoying the book a lot, she's not putting me to sleep with her prose, that was just my body going 'quit now'.
If I can't even read, I sure as heck can't write.
Not sure how today is going to go. One of my dreams last night was about an editorial conference with
We shall see.
I suppose the point is, don't force the process. Push it, yes. Force it, no.