But still with the spoons... Some days I wipe out early and sleep long. As happened yesterday. It's tied to how much I've done that day, and fairly specifically to how much driving I've done. For example, yesterday I had lunch with a friend on the southwest end of Portland (far from Nuevo Rancho Lake), then yesterday evening I drove
I'm not sure if the driving is the specific factor that exhausts me, or if it is just a proxy for my overall level of activity. Days when I stay home and lay low, I can stay up til 10:00 or so, sleep six or seven hours, and be fine. This is pretty close to my ordinary behavior when I am at baseline health. Days when I am out and about look a lot more like yesterday, with noticeable fatigue, early bedtimes and hard sleep.
And of course, because I feel fine, I rarely remember to take this fatigue into account. It's not like while I was on chemo, when every spoon spent was painfully obvious. (For more on spoons, see here: [ jlake.com | LiveJournal ].) So I barrel through the days as if I'm healthy, then have a wipe out lottery in the evenings.
Still, a vast improvement. Still, annoying.
And on an unrelated note, last night I dreamt I was at a big potluck picnic with, among other people,
Ah, my dreaming mind, such a lovely landscape it is.