This happened to me yesterday as I geared up to once more start laying down significant first draft word count on Their Currents Turn Awry, Sunspin volume two. I'd spent the previous couple of days reading through the 66,600 words of draft I already had in the can. That effort got me back into the headspace of the books, the terrain of the characters. Yesterday, though, I needed to step off the edge and take the plunge into the next 70,000 words or so.
For one long, slow moment, teetering at the edge, I felt like chickening out.
I didn't. I never do. But the temptation is always there, right at that launch point.
In fact, I went on to write 4,500 words of first draft yesterday. Two character segments. With gunfire, and crashed spaceships sinking into the waters of a frigid mountain lake, and murder at a production studio. It's not like it wasn't fun, or interesting, or engaging, or entertaining. Writing (almost) always is those things for me.
I just get a little spooked by the size of my ambitions sometimes. Then I remember that I am bigger than the story, that I must be bigger than the story. It is contained within me, and only I can let it out.
The multitudes are marching. I will be for a while plural.