This morning I'm off to the imaging center for my CT scan and CEA bloodwork. This is preparatory to Wednesday's oncology consult. Donnie Reynolds is here filming for the documentary. Lisa Costello is here to hold my hand. Me, I'm here to hold my shit together. Had a somewhat difficult filming session with Donnie yesterday evening. I followed that with a slow motion meltdown from my cancer anxiety. Today is when the bullet hits the bone. My fear knows no bounds.