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Jay Lake
Date: 2012-12-26 05:11
Subject: [cancer] Things are looking better
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Tags:cancer, health, personal, work
As of yesterday, the nine-day reign of terror in my lower GI seem to have abated. I won't feel certain about this until at least another day has passed without untoward incident, but pace my car-on-ice rhetoric, after 24 hours without any overt symptoms, I have abandoned the antidiarrheal meds.

So far, so okay.

If this business has settled, I can get back to post-chemo recovery, which seems to have gone to Hob for a game of poker with souls. After the colonic spasms of two nights ago, last night I experienced muscle spasms along my spine, along with the more generic lower back and hip pain I normally associate with Neulasta. Except rather a bit later than expected. Because reasons. It's like the virus that was giving me the horrid lower GI effects was holding everything else hostage, too. (And no, I did not acquire Stockholm syndrome.)

This morning there was great if brief confusion when I discovered the "Monday AM" pillbox empty. Yes, I am going back to work today. No, this is not the day after Sunday. Sometimes I can keep up, sometimes the world is like one of those popup snakes in a can.

I will be so profoundly relieved if the current lower GI reprieve turns out to be a true ending to the madness. This last week has been perhaps my most miserable chemo week ever.

A true Christmas miracle for this atheist?

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User: cypherindigo
Date: 2012-12-26 13:30 (UTC)
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"A true Christmas miracle for this atheist?"

No, Just your body reminding you that it is in charge.
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scarlettina: Christmas ornament
User: scarlettina
Date: 2012-12-26 14:48 (UTC)
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Keyword:Christmas ornament
This morning there was great if brief confusion when I discovered the "Monday AM" pillbox empty.

I think you can chalk up that bit of confusion to Christmas happening on a Mon/Tues rather than as a side effect of chemo. We're all a little turned around after a long weekend. Let this be a mistake of normalcy turned upside down rather than chemical confusion.
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Keikaimalu
User: keikaimalu
Date: 2012-12-26 16:08 (UTC)
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sometimes the world is like one of those popup snakes in a can

Yes. This. This happens with post-radiation fatigue too. The brain you once had is not the brain you have any longer. If you're very unlucky, the loss can last for years, or even be permanent.

I'm very glad you're starting to feel better. I hope the trend continues.
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