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Jay Lake
Date: 2013-05-02 06:23
Subject: [dreams|cancer] More dreaming of loss and diminishment
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Tags:cancer, dreams, personal, writing
I had a long, complex dream last night. In the first part, I was leading a large, multi-day workshop in a hotel, perhaps in Arizona or New Mexico. It was a lot of fun, emceeing the large group, being a critiquer and teacher in the breakout groups, partying on the patio in the evenings.

Then the workshop ended, and some of us retreated to the home of one of the local participants for an evening afterparty. It was a smaller group now, and people kept drifting off. I was having trouble keeping track of my belongings. For some reason, instead of being on my computer, all my drafts were handwritten in red ink on scraps of paper or in spiral notebooks. I kept dropping and losing the notebooks. The scraps got picked up by other people and used to mop spilled drinks or feed the fire in the chimito.

Eventually I found myself out on the sidewalk in front of the house in the light of morning. My writing was down to a few shoeboxes full of scraps. The notebooks were all gone. And as I kept sorting through the shoeboxes, the scraps were vanishing. Blowing away in the wind, or simply disappearing. I was grubby by then, looking like a homeless man. The crackle of police radios echoed nearby. Soon I would be run off, and probably lose even those few last bits of writing I was clutching so desperately.

You don't need to be Joseph interpreting dreams for Pharaoh to grok this one. I awoke with a deep sense of sadness.

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User: scarlettina
Date: 2013-05-02 13:26 (UTC)
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That would be Joseph interpreting dreams, Jay. ;-)
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Jay Lake: graffiti-smiling
User: jaylake
Date: 2013-05-02 13:29 (UTC)
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You know, I actually did know that. Joseph is my Biblical namesake, after all. I blame morning brain. And thank you. ;)
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User: scarlettina
Date: 2013-05-02 13:51 (UTC)
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I figured as much. Poor morning brain. ::pats poor brain:: You're welcome. :-)

Edited at 2013-05-02 01:52 pm (UTC)
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asakiyume: far horizon
User: asakiyume
Date: 2013-05-02 14:51 (UTC)
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Keyword:far horizon
I'd like to have the power to go send my dream self into your dream and help you gather up the papers. You know in The Lathe of Heaven, how the guy dreamed up the aliens who helped him sort things out?

Sometimes you can overwrite bad dreams, turn them into not-so-bad. I'd come into you dream and say, Look, look, those people weren't picking them up to mop up drinks after all. They were coating them in special preservative fluid that's going to make the paper strong, and look, now they're binding them all into special books to give to people, and to raise money for a foundation in your name.
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