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Jay Lake
Date: 2013-07-30 06:24
Subject: [personal] Yesterday...
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Tags:cancer, dreams, friends, health, personal, travel
Yesterday was both very wonderful and very difficult. We attended a wedding which was very dear to my heart. Everything there came off perfectly — weather, setting, people, ceremony. That was followed by a very difficult afternoon for reasons unconnected to the wedding. In the end, all was resolved, but some days are definitely better than others.

Overnight I had dreams of abandonment. I was living in a tiny apartment and working as paid convention staff somewhere. Everyone I knew, everyone I loved, was gone, and I was still dying of cancer. I woke up on the verge of both tears and depression.

Today I am behind on my packing. As in, not started. Ahem. But I'm not going to the airport for another nine hours, and all I have to do is settle two billing disputes, see my therapist, go to the post office, and pack for fifteen days overseas. All of it at half speed, because I neither move nor think fast anymore. Nonetheless, all will be well, I am certain of it.

So, yeah, cracking I get.

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Debbie N.
User: wild_irises
Date: 2013-07-30 14:11 (UTC)
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The amazing thing about packing is that it always gets done, regardless of the ways in which leaving for the trip makes it impossible.

I envy you New Zealand; it's a place I would love to see.
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Jeff: Me
User: jeffreyab
Date: 2013-07-30 15:21 (UTC)
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Off to climb Mount Doom?

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Queen of the Skies
User: queenoftheskies
Date: 2013-07-30 15:55 (UTC)
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Have a safe trip!
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User: martianmooncrab
Date: 2013-07-30 19:21 (UTC)
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some days are definitely better than others.

thats the truth, no matter what. Hoping that the good days are forefront.

Have a safe and wonderful trip, I never made it to New Zealand, so take lots of pics, and send yourself and The Child postcards.
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